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Remade

There in the corner... it sits in all of its tattered glory. Maple marred by generations that have rested upon its arms. Its cushion torn wide exposing the matted horse hair beneath. It's ugly. But - it's comfortable. Acquired by my grandparents while they were missionaries in Mexico. It has been passed down through the ages and somehow took up residence within my walls. For over forty years it has rocked the babies in my family...my brother...myself...all seven of my gifts. We've all had our time being lulled to sleep by the rhythm of it's creak long into the wee hours. Countless prayers have poured from the lips of each mother while holding that precious babe to her chest. It's a family treasure. Yet the years have taken their toll and even though it holds wondrous memories it's an eyesore every time my eyes lay hold of it. I've decided this is the year. The year of it's makeover. It will require time. Time I don't necessarily have but I'm ...

Joyful

My heart aches for the one wandering...lost for years now. So I sit in the quiet in this season of miracles praying for just that - a miracle.   My sweet girl nestled in the crook of my arm yet nothing feels right. Happy?  Joyful?  That's not what I feel.  I press my nose against hers and breathe in all that she is.  Her warm breath saturated with the aroma of soured milk brushes my nostrils and I hold on a little tighter.  These moments slip away so quickly...I want to remember this. Kai climbs into the open space of my lap...sweeps my hair back and wipes the fallen tears from my face. While "O Little Town of Bethlehem" sings from across the room and Chaela spreads a smile filled with joy. Though tears fall, I can't help but smile too.  I'm reminded that sometimes the miracle is right in front of me.  Not every season of life is easy.  Jesus never promised it would be but he did promise to always be with us and with Him we can alw...

Light Breaks Through

In the eye of a storm, we sit, curled beside the twinkling of the Christmas tree.  Caressing her threads of scarlet...outlining each petite curve of that face in hopes of carving it into my memory...my finger sweeps over her silky smooth complexion as I watch her sleep. She looks like a porcelain doll cradled against my chest.  Her breath stills my heart while gratefulness leaks quietly down.  I hoped for this one. Begged for this one, long before she was ever conceived.  I know I don't deserve her - or any of the seven.  Yet right in the middle of fragmented hearts, tattered dreams, weariness, lost loved ones,  messy families, terrorism, shootings, a world gone mad. In the midst of it all is the face of a babe. Hope. Darkness visits us all.  It attempts to steal our joy, snuff out what God has planned but light always overcomes. I remember the nights spent at my uncles ranch.  Over four hundred acres in the middle of absolutely nowhere....