He told her his plan and she laughed wild. He said he could do it with such conviction. He said he had been praying and knew this was the answer God had given him. "Please, just trust me." Who can argue with that, even if fear begins to strangle. She believed in him. So they took the little they had...all they had... and bought two fifty-three foot trailers full of insulation.
That was the beginning...
Years before they had made a deal. Not one she liked but the deal was done. They would have one more child. Try for a girl. That was it. They got a girl. Audrey. She cradled her close... her answer to prayer and he ran fast to make sure no more little ones ran about.
As time scrolled on she knew it was a mistake. She prayed hard for years that God would change his heart. Finally, He did. Once that man became a Christian he knew it was a mistake too. So they looked into a reversal but the cost - astronomical. Soon adoption fell into their laps. Excited. They began to prepare for the rambunctious little boy and baby girl that would soon be theirs. He was two and she was born in the season of Thanksgiving.
The last few years had been hard. Really hard. They had about lost hope with everything. Now, they stood in the nursery by the plastic cradle that encapsulated their heart. As she stroked that precious babies hair her own dead heart opened wide and began to beat again. They named her Lorinda after her dearest friend who flew to heaven to early. Faith given as her middle name.
After three months - three months that felt like an eternity that little one wasn't to be theirs and her two year old brother...well...he wouldn't be theirs either. Both children lost. Hearts wept. The whole family grieved. Yet, the desire for more children pounded hard.
Some well meaning people didn't understand. They whispered "At least they have other children." But any mother knows each child is unique. When you lose one...no matter how many others you have there is a void.
Then the word came - that family they knew years ago...the ones who had been so unkind...their adoption process was getting underway and soon they would have twins. Cruel. God - felt cruel. And repenting of a jealous heart isn't easy when it's also a broken one.
Still - the answer was no. God was teaching her something. Teaching her to trust Him. Not trust Him to give her what she wanted but to trust Him with her heart no matter what. It took time. A lot of time. It wasn't easy but she learned. Well...she's learning. And instead of begging for what she didn't have she began to be grateful for what she did have. The five she already cradled.
Sometimes God says no indefinitely. Sometimes it's just no for now.
A few years later she found a Christian whose ministry was to do reversals. Told her man. Still, they didn't have even half of the money needed for the surgery and they had also just learned the oldest daughter needed braces. Now. They continued to pray. Two months later this is the idea that came to her husband. Insulation. So she took his hand and they jumped...and six weeks later it had all been sold. They made enough money for the surgery, plus enough for the braces, and regained all they had invested.
That was God.
A few weeks later they boarded a plane and flew to Arkansas. Though the odds were stacked against them they prayed with that doctor and his son. Ask for mistakes to be redeemed and peace if the answer was no.
Within two months of the surgery she was expecting.
In four years they've had five babies. Three in heaven and two that they're honored to hold each day. Malakai, he's two now, and Michaela she was born in the season of Thanksgiving...the day after her mama's dearest friend had flown to heaven eight years before.
God redeems.
They grace their little girl with the middle name Shalom. Peace.
And in that doctors office Malakai and Michaela's profiles are pinned upon that board. The board full of children that were always to be...it just took a bit for their parents to see. Each one an answer to prayer. Each one a gift from above.
And they are grateful.
Until then...
Jessie
That was the beginning...
As time scrolled on she knew it was a mistake. She prayed hard for years that God would change his heart. Finally, He did. Once that man became a Christian he knew it was a mistake too. So they looked into a reversal but the cost - astronomical. Soon adoption fell into their laps. Excited. They began to prepare for the rambunctious little boy and baby girl that would soon be theirs. He was two and she was born in the season of Thanksgiving.
The last few years had been hard. Really hard. They had about lost hope with everything. Now, they stood in the nursery by the plastic cradle that encapsulated their heart. As she stroked that precious babies hair her own dead heart opened wide and began to beat again. They named her Lorinda after her dearest friend who flew to heaven to early. Faith given as her middle name.
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| Lorinda Faith 8 pounds 3 ounces 20 3/4 inches |
After three months - three months that felt like an eternity that little one wasn't to be theirs and her two year old brother...well...he wouldn't be theirs either. Both children lost. Hearts wept. The whole family grieved. Yet, the desire for more children pounded hard.
Some well meaning people didn't understand. They whispered "At least they have other children." But any mother knows each child is unique. When you lose one...no matter how many others you have there is a void.
Then the word came - that family they knew years ago...the ones who had been so unkind...their adoption process was getting underway and soon they would have twins. Cruel. God - felt cruel. And repenting of a jealous heart isn't easy when it's also a broken one.
Still - the answer was no. God was teaching her something. Teaching her to trust Him. Not trust Him to give her what she wanted but to trust Him with her heart no matter what. It took time. A lot of time. It wasn't easy but she learned. Well...she's learning. And instead of begging for what she didn't have she began to be grateful for what she did have. The five she already cradled.
Sometimes God says no indefinitely. Sometimes it's just no for now.
A few years later she found a Christian whose ministry was to do reversals. Told her man. Still, they didn't have even half of the money needed for the surgery and they had also just learned the oldest daughter needed braces. Now. They continued to pray. Two months later this is the idea that came to her husband. Insulation. So she took his hand and they jumped...and six weeks later it had all been sold. They made enough money for the surgery, plus enough for the braces, and regained all they had invested.
That was God.
A few weeks later they boarded a plane and flew to Arkansas. Though the odds were stacked against them they prayed with that doctor and his son. Ask for mistakes to be redeemed and peace if the answer was no.
Within two months of the surgery she was expecting.
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| Malakai James |
In four years they've had five babies. Three in heaven and two that they're honored to hold each day. Malakai, he's two now, and Michaela she was born in the season of Thanksgiving...the day after her mama's dearest friend had flown to heaven eight years before.
God redeems.
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| Michaela Shalom |
And in that doctors office Malakai and Michaela's profiles are pinned upon that board. The board full of children that were always to be...it just took a bit for their parents to see. Each one an answer to prayer. Each one a gift from above.
And they are grateful.
Until then...
Jessie
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